(Let Me Be) The Other Me

I have seen another sky
I have climbed another tree
I have wished another star,
above another star lit sea

Another me lives another life,
I've always dreamed
Another me exists somewhere
Why can't I live that life there?
Please let me be ... the other me

And I have seen another sunrise,
and another lightning storm
I'm not just the me you see
You see another me was born

Another me lives another life,
I've always dreamed
Another me exists somewhere
Why can't I live that life there?
Please let me be ... the other me

Somewhere I'm happy
I'm smiled at understood
In another Place I lift my face,
not hide it in a hood

I have seen another sky
I have climbed another tree
I have wished another star,
above another star lit sea

Somewhere I'm happy
I'm smiled at understood
In another Place I lift my face,
not hide it in a hood

I have loved another love,
in another place like this
I've been held and felt so safe
Oh yes, I've kissed another kiss..

by Jim STURGESS

Lovely Stories #5: Lost in Translation (Mistranslated) ...

Is that her?  Is that really her struggling? Trying to scratch herself off of the ground and yet trying to be an actual part of the ground at the same time? Preparing her own grave just to be able to not exist any more? 

Is that it? Is that so easy? Escaping?

If only she knew… knew that it’s not that easy. I mean if so, people would be nowhere. Long gone by now.. but that wouldn’t stop her anyway. She would still be the same person and go on doing what she has believed in. Smarty-pants! 

Yeah.. life is a bitch. She knows that for sure. But what she doesn’t know is that people are bitches too. Damn cruel bitches! They always make you question yourself: “is something wrong with me?”   

but no… nothing’s wrong with her. She sure is a unique person just as anyone else is. Yet, yes. She is struggling with the person she has always been and she is now. Trying to put herself somewhere. Instead, she has been put this huge useless hump on her back. Somewhere near her neck, and day by day it’s weighing a lot more. It’s stuck in there. Everytime she grabs it and throws it away, it comes back before too long.

She also carries tons and tons of bricks on/in her head. Funny though, she quit counting after it reached a hundred. The pile itself has already seemed enough to get intimidated. She did get intimidated. And people don’t give up too. They diligently add another brick to the pile and to be honest, that’s what they’re all really good at: increasing the other’s suffering. 

Her downfall has yet been literally tragic. She is really looking forward to jump in to that grave. But she is not sure one thing: Is it deep enough to go?  It seems not. So carrying on; her nails are bleeding, her arms are burning, her eyes are swelling and her knees are getting torn apart. But she? She doesn’t feel any of that shit. All she can think about is to be done with it as soon as possible. ‘Cause she doesn’t like the daylight any more. She doesn’t want to breathe. “Is it that bad?”

If only she knew… knew that it is that bad and it’s not gonna be okay. After all, what has turned her into this are yet the things life has given to her… as if it a nice present. But she is aware of the fact that it’s not a nice one. İt’s more like.. a crappy nightmare…

Well, she can’t help it. It is her nature to prevent people from doing stupid or wrong things. To her surprise, noone cares. On the contrary, they shamelessly act like she is the one who is problematic. Shamelessly… Yet, just as none of her warnings has worked for them so far, noone is trying to stop her burying herself in to the endlessness.. Everyone, but everyone is just standing there and watching her descending.

 And yes, it is her.. it is really her lying there… waiting for someone to cover her back up with all that soil she has just dug up.. just as they always did for all these years..

But the question is:  Will someone show up?

..

Fabulous Quote of the Day

The only place where your dream becomes impossible is in your own thinking. 

image via weheartit.com

p.s. sorry i forgot to whom this saying belongs to.. 

Went Nuts ...

I WANT TO BE SOOOOOOOOOOO DEAD!!!!!!!!

Holy Crap!! This is TOTALLY Weird.

WOW!! IT'S BEEN REALLY QUITE SOME TIME.. AND NOW, I'M TECHNICALLY BACK!

AND ALL I CAN SAY IS:

HELLO,

I MISS YOU GUYS SO VERY MUCH.....................

xoxo,

S.